Loving the Unlovable

This is a post I have been working on for a couple of weeks. So that is why you will see references to school : ) I was going to post this yesterday but I just needed a little more time to work on it.

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Rude people seem to be attracted to me lately.

From the yelling lady at Chick Fil-a who yelled at me because I wouldn’t let her cut the line. (Literally got out of her car and walked up to my window yelling).

To the man who honked at me in the school lane for not moving “fast” enough for his liking. (Seriously? Who acts like that at their child’s school? And I am sorry that my child who has OCD tendencies is pissing you off because he doesn’t want to get out of my truck until his favorite teacher comes to let him out. Go around me.)

Or to the man who was at the neighborhood pool and kept calling his son a “doofus” and a “pansy ass” for not throwing a ball correctly. And when his son started showing Ryan how to swim his dad responded by saying “Way to show him how to drown.”

To the kid at the pool (another time) who told Ryan that he wasn’t allowed to play with him and his friends. And the mom who just sat there and did nothing about it.

Or the lady on Twitter (who some of y’all might even know) who thinks it’s okay to be a snob. She claims to live in an upscale city and rubs elbows with the famous people. I don’t really buy it but even if its true she has no right to be rude. She says things like her two-year old carries a Jimmy Choo bag so that makes her different from “all of us”. She has the “me” vs “you” mentality. I am glad to be NOTHING like her. I unfollowed her after so many “I am better than you” tweets. I know she has the right to use Twitter however she wants but what’s with the snob?

Oh, and don’t forget the girl and mom at the park. When Ryan walked up and started talking to the little girl she couldn’t understand him. The little girl turned to me and with attitude asked “What’s wrong with your kid?” in which her mom responded by laughing. LAUGHING. I am sorry but I didn’t realize that my son’s speech disability is funny.

Or the lady who told a friend of mine that “animals belong at the zoo” in reference to her crying child. I would have slapped that lady.

And you don’t even want to know what my husband’s sperm donor said. Yeah, I won’t put that on here but if you follow me on Twitter you might have read about it.

I really just don’t understand it. I would be horrified to act this way in public and to treat people this way.

I know that God says that we are supposed to love EVERYONE but what if those people are just really unlovable?

What if they’re mean and make your child cry at a park? Am I suppose to love them after that?

What if your husband’s sperm donor (he is not my FIL because he was NEVER a father) says something really hateful to your husband? Just to hurt him and upset the family.

How am I suppose to love that?

I am a very strong Christian but this is something that I have been struggling with lately.

But I know that I am unlovable sometimes too. And God loves me during those times…

He loves me when I deserve it the least. When I am sinning and just walking away from him.

When I know what I should do but I do the opposite.

He loves me when I roll my eyes at someone or curse because someone cuts in off on the road.

He loves me when I makes a million excuses as to why I want to do something that I should not be doing. When I just need one excuse to follow what he teaches (because he says so)…

And he loves me when I am in a bad mood. I am not mean to people when I am in a bad mood but I just want to be left alone….

But still.

How am I suppose to love the unlovable because it’s so hard sometimes. Lately I have wanted to punch more people than I have wanted to love (I know. Mean but true. FYI – I have never punched anyone lol )

What I have learned (thanks to a Twitter friend) is that I need to pray for ALL of these people. That is something that might not be easy but will benefit everyone.

I need to let go. I need to realize that some people are just mean. And some kids just aren’t taught manners. I might not let Ryan be rude to another little kid but I have learned that not all kids are taught the same thing.

I need to show Ryan that even when people are mean to you you can’t let it ruin your day. You just walk away, pray for them, and know that they will be held accountable for EVERYTHING that comes out of their mouth.

And vengeance. I love that my God is a God of justice. He is a God who will right all wrongs. He is a God who can serve justice in a way that we on Earth could never imagine. I have to hold on to that. I am focusing on the greatness of God instead of the rudeness of people.

It might be wrong but I am comforted by the fact that some people will stand in front of God one day and be held accountable. They will have to answer to the things that they did and said on this earth. They will have to answer to why they were so mean and hurtful to their family.

And last but not least I have to realize that there are more GOOD people in this world than BAD. I guess because I have been running into so many rude people lately my view on humanity is getting clouded. I use to always think that most people were good. Now I think some people are good but that some people are just downright awful.

So right now I am praying for all of these people. I am praying that God opens my eyes to see the good in people. Even when they might be being rude. I am praying to God that whatever happens just rolls off my back. That I don’t hold onto it. No grudges. I am praying that people who are mean learn how to be nice. Learn to how to raise their kids to be people who are upstanding and awesome. I am praying that God softens their hearts. That they won’t want to be mean for just the sake of being mean.

But most of all I am praying that I see people the way that God sees people.